"Billy"
Short yet simple 2 remember
Dances,

 "Don’t apologize for that is who you are"

                                                                   - Rania Naim

I've soon come to a realization, or already am aware of the situation at hand at that point of time , but never  knew what my action implement , Maybe i did but never had way to show it  , now i do or rather its close enough to what i would have tried doing

You do what you need to do . Its ok , I Understand . Because its something you have to experience for yourself , either alone or with someone else , to be able to get past that ride of passage you claim u find missing , For that, It is ok , For that i would fully compromise for your need to experience and understand as its  part of passage of life. Whether if its related or not its selfish of me to do what i do, to reminisce what has past, which totally does not affect the decision that was made today;then.

It was cruel of me to run of , like a child afraid of creature that lure under the bed of mine when its half past 12. Its a feeling that all seem to familiar. What i should have done like all mature adult , was to stay and fight, Fight for what mine even if "whatever" show sign of giving up.

But enough of the past , Its ok , Lift your head held high, be proud for it. As it ok. You will someday learn and maybe come to a realization to what a fool u have been or maybe not haha . and would tell yourself if only you knew about it earlier but its ok as that what make life amusing .

Its fun. Isnt it ?  Because Everyday hold a new adventure  everyday you experience a new problem where you have to solve . 

So ... at least enjoy life cus i know you will , sooner or later. So thank you